I've spent a lot of time thinking about how I was going to write this post. I mean, it's kind of a big step for me. I have had another blog but my feelings about this blog and my idea for it are very different. Not only does this blog have a different topic and a different feel, it's much more soul bearing. I am exposing myself in almost every aspect of my life. My journal exposed, so to speak.
You, as a reader, might find that strange. You may not understand why I would want someone looking over my shoulder as I walk through my life. It's partly about accountability, partly because I need support and partly because I don't think my problems are all that unique.
All I ask is that if you've found yourself here. If someone linked you here and you're just browsing, please be kind. Please know that a real person with real problems is typing these words. I did not get to this point in my life overnight and it won't change overnight. Regardless of how anyone may feel about this situation, one step at a time is all I've got.
This blog is here because my life is failing. No, thankfully I'm not dying but I do spend a lot of my days wracked with unexplained pain or sleeping. Because I neglect my duties as a housewife, mother, wife and friend. Because my whole life is cluttered, unorganized chaos. Because I have not taken good enough care of my body. Because my children do not behave the way I want them to. Because I do not have as close of a relationship with my husband as I'd like. And most importantly, above all, I am not as close to the Lord as I'd like to be.
The fact is, I can't continue living the way we're living. It is not fair to myself or my family and it's not what I want for us. This is not the happy life I imagined. I'm determined to change this situation. I hope you'll stick with me as I try.
So, come on in and stay awhile. "We" have a lot of work to do.
