I've spent a lot of time thinking about how I was going to write this post. I mean, it's kind of a big step for me. I have had another blog but my feelings about this blog and my idea for it are very different. Not only does this blog have a different topic and a different feel, it's much more soul bearing. I am exposing myself in almost every aspect of my life. My journal exposed, so to speak.
You, as a reader, might find that strange. You may not understand why I would want someone looking over my shoulder as I walk through my life. It's partly about accountability, partly because I need support and partly because I don't think my problems are all that unique.
All I ask is that if you've found yourself here. If someone linked you here and you're just browsing, please be kind. Please know that a real person with real problems is typing these words. I did not get to this point in my life overnight and it won't change overnight. Regardless of how anyone may feel about this situation, one step at a time is all I've got.
This blog is here because my life is failing. No, thankfully I'm not dying but I do spend a lot of my days wracked with unexplained pain or sleeping. Because I neglect my duties as a housewife, mother, wife and friend. Because my whole life is cluttered, unorganized chaos. Because I have not taken good enough care of my body. Because my children do not behave the way I want them to. Because I do not have as close of a relationship with my husband as I'd like. And most importantly, above all, I am not as close to the Lord as I'd like to be.
The fact is, I can't continue living the way we're living. It is not fair to myself or my family and it's not what I want for us. This is not the happy life I imagined. I'm determined to change this situation. I hope you'll stick with me as I try.
So, come on in and stay awhile. "We" have a lot of work to do.
Dear Mrs Wells
ReplyDeleteI just happened to come across your blog and moved by what you have written. Im new to this blogging and still trying to set up a blog. I would like to say that from what you have written I can say that you are on the right track. Yes its only the Lord who will guide us back on to the right track once we realize we have gone off track. The very fact that you have realized your wrongs I'm sure the Lord will lead you and even help you forget your past. I got up this morning asking the Holy Spirit to lead me in the right way. Let me tell you that I have tried this very often and got shocking results. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you in what ever way you feel and try and be aware of his presence as you go about your work. Beleive me you will find that whatever you do, works out right. There si always hope for those who place their trust in the Lord. As he said I will send you a Comforter who will guide you and lead. So let the H.S. be your guide and watch how you will always remain in His care.
God Bless
Quentin, thank you for your kind words and for stumbling upon my blog. I believe God led you here for whatever reason, so stay tuned, I have a lot to post here. I hope that it will be help full to others who have lost their way and who are actively seeking the Lord. Thank you for the reminder to ask the Holy Spirit for guidance and best wishes for your own blogging aspirations.
ReplyDeleteGod Bless